Mad Man 第四季最后一集结尾:Betty 一个人在即将搬空的房中。外面有声响:
Betty: Hello?
Don: Mrs. Truxton?
B: No, it's me. I forgot about the cabinets in the guest bath.
D: So you were't that thorough?
B: I guess not.
然后Don 熟门熟路地从cupboard底部找出一瓶酒,Betty 忍不住笑了,这场景如此熟悉,还象以前一样。
Betty 默契地拿出杯子,Don 倒酒。
Betty 抬头专注注视他的脸,Don 低头没看她。
B: Remember this place?
D: I do.
B: It's different. That's for certain.
D: Isn't that what you wanted?
B: I don't know, Don. Things aren't perfect.
D: So you'll move again?
B: So much change. It's made everything ...difficult.
D: I have to tell you something. I met someone. I'm engaged.
B: Really? Bethany Van Nuys?
D: No, someone at work.
Betty 表情落寞, 悲伤无处遁形,只能说:I'm very happy for you.
Don: It's okay. Betty.
B: I don't know why I'm surprised.
钟声响,Betty 取下钥匙给Don, 含泪道一声Congratulations. 回一声 Thank you. 各自分开,只留空荡房间空荡桌面刚才对饮那瓶酒和杯独自寂寥。
这个场景某种程度上让我想起喜欢的喜帖街:
忘掉种过的花重新的出发放弃理想吧
别再看尘封的喜帖你正在要搬家
筑得起人应该接受都有日倒下
其实没有一种安稳快乐永远也不差
就似这一区曾经称得上美满甲天下
但霎眼全街的单位快要住满乌鸦
好景不会每日常在天梯不可只往上爬
爱的人没有一生一世吗大概不需要害怕
忘掉爱过的他当初的喜帖金箔印着那位他
裱起婚纱照那道墙及一切美丽旧年华
明日同步拆下
忘掉有过的家小餐枱沙发雪柜及两份红茶
温馨的光境不过借出到期拿回吗
等不到下一代是吗
忘掉砌过的沙回忆的堡垒刹那已倒下
面对这浮起的荒土你注定学会潇洒
阶砖不会拒绝磨蚀窗花不可幽禁落霞
有感情就会一生一世吗又再婉惜有用吗
忘掉有过的家小餐枱沙发雪柜及两份红茶
温馨的光境不过借出到期拿回吗
终须会时辰到别怕
请放下手里那锁匙好吗
可是即使有三个下一代又怎样。
仍然很在意他,Gene生日party的时候Betty表现就很明显,他的约会对象名字记那么清楚,当时跟Henry一起正好碰到两人date的时候也是完全失态,无法控制情绪,回头还跟朋友抱怨说他过得滋润着呢,分明还是在乎。
Betty跟他分开并不是因为不爱,而是不能掌控局面。出身低的Don自己有一大堆的童年心理创伤,一大堆的高强度工作压力,一大堆的因为假借别人身份怕被识破的躲藏和恐慌,无法释怀无法治愈,自己还在不断的女人中流连麻醉以换得片刻遗忘和安静,哪有精力和心情像Henry 那样哄她,宠溺她,耐心倾听她,只是需要Betty扮优雅扮公主扮高贵装点门面然后置之不理。
If you can hold it, it's yours; while if you can't, just let it go.
P.S. 人人都爱年轻漂亮25岁女秘书。
感觉里面心理最强大的是Joan.
Peggy: can you believe it ?
Joan: It happens all the time. They're all just between marriages. You know that.
Peggy: A pretty face come along and everything goes out the window.
Joan: Well, I learned it a long time ago to not get all my satisfaction from this job.
Dr. Miller在 Don 困难的时候帮他很多,最后也不抵a young pretty face. 接到电话感觉到什么的她声音已开始颤抖,听Don 对她说:I met somebody. and we're engaged.
--Who is she?
--What's the difference. I fell in love. I didn't mean for this to happen. You've been very important to me.
---I hope you very happy and I hope she knows you only like the beginnings of things.
---I'm sorry. I don't know what else to say.
---Goodbye.
可能我们大部分只是 Peggy, 没有资本,从小地方而来,不够漂亮,不够聪明,不够魅惑,不够风情,辛苦工作,努力向上。脑海中所能记起的永远都是她无论何时都在一个人坐着打字的哒哒声。
不过Peggy, 这是属于我们的,才智是我们的。
一季季看下来,表面上Don 越来越迷失了,实际上却在一点点地找回自己,勇敢面对旧时创伤。