Lu:Do u think there is still some reason to love me?I think there is not. My friend was drunk tonight. Puked a lot. She fells so bad. Cause she wants to ask a question to the one she loves. She wants to ask if he missed her. Why ?why not just ask him. I told her. Ask! Say it!why not !is there something worse than what u are going through right now??! Ask!Ask him! Actually,I was just like her too. These days ,I am thinking that if we should continue this relationship. Don't get me wrong. When I am saying this I am not do not love you anymore. It's right the apposite. I love u so bad. I just want to know what u are thinking about me. Do you think the relationship is a burden for u ?Just tell me. Don't hide your feelings. I don't care if I will feel so bad. It doesn't matter. Just tell me ur real thoughts....love you. Good day.
Lee:Burden?? Come on?
Hard?? Of course, i told you that its gonna be like that. I know me at the army have no at all...
I told you that i dont want anyone to suffer cause of me, and i knew that 4 month is a long time for such a short relationship...
Girl, i want you. To see you again, feel you again.
At least now. You know that if i could of see you right now i would of done it.
I hate the fact that i make you feel like that.
While im busy and have no time to think at all you are studying and thinking. Whats makes it harder for you.
I understand that its hard and hurt.
Im sorry.
But please dont suffer for my sake. If you cannot bear it just dont. Cut me out of your life.
I told you before, im traveling and falling in love with people but understand that i have to continue my journey...
I promised that we will meet again, and as soon as i can...
Thank you for being honest with me.
I feel like what ive just wrote is a mess, but that was instant reaction.
I do miss you!
No reason to love you??? What are you talking about? What are the reasons to love someone at all?!?!?
Lee:Probably good night
Lee:call me when u can
Lu:The shittiest thing for me is not the feeling of missing u dear,not the distance of us as well,don't feel sorry, I can wait.
The shittiest thing is I found I started losing u and I can't do nothing but see it
The death of the affection.
Affection. Man creates it. so man can control its "life ".But how?
Sometimes I do hope u just leave me behind,cause U deserve to do so to a girl who far away from u ,and can't do nothing good for u,in other words--me.
Maybe I just don't want to see the end of ur affection.Maybe I just don't want to have hope. I don't want to build my hopes up. I don't want to live in fear. There is no fear of losing if u never have it.The proper thing u should do when u start being afraid of losing is let it go in advance .so I want to leave you now.we can be more than friends but not boy friend and girl friend. I don't need your promise,I don't need you have responsibility for me. I don't want to be selfish. Visit me when you can.Talk to me when you want. I will threat you just like before . Nothing will change. I will still miss you as before,love you as before. U. Just do what you want. Never care about what you should do to me. No. Don't think like that. If u do so ,I feel guilty. I can imagine what u want to say---The Same goes for me.
If so ,let's make a deal. Never change ourselves to satisfy each other's desire.
Deal?
I love you so bad,but I want a break-up. It's sounds weird isn't it?
we are the same person,all of us don't want to hurt anyone.But The good personality of us do bring me some trouble.u merely reply me few words and seems never to strat a conversation on ur own.so I can't avoid thinking if u don't love me anymore.(now I know I was overthinking,u was just busy and tired.sorry. u never mentioned what u are doing. So I can't imagine how busy u are. .)I was suffering merely cause of myself
why u love me?Have I lost the part u like?what else I can do to save the relationship?surly,if I do nothing ,just let it be ,it will die sooner or later.
But what else I can do ,at my age,st my situation ?I can't find out what else I can do...I can't do other than what I am. I wanna be myself. I don't want to be the
I ask myself why I love you and which will make me don't love u anymore. The answer is I don't know and nothing.
Shouldn't I have paid too much care of lasting the relationship?
I want to be my myself，not merely the one u like
Have nothing,have nothing to lose,have nothing to fear
I don't wanna fear it either. just like u
But I can't stop
U are the one I never want to lose
Unfortunately it's exactly the reason I want you go
It's an cowardly act indeed.
I can't bear the fear anymore
I can't bear the fear drives me to change into the one u like anymore
Change into the one you like is the only thing I know which can last our relationship.But I don't know what should I be.and I don't want to be other one not myself
I don't want to be selfish
But when I have written all of them, I realized how selfish I am
I am the one who always chasing perfection
People always say Love someone do not need a reason.But actually it's not like that. Or how to explain the end of a relationship,the death of affection?Still no reason? When u don't love him anymore,there is always at least a reason which led to that situation. Thus love or don't love someone. There must be at least a reason.
I used to want someone to love me. But after I met u. I just wanna love you. I don't want the one I love to love me. Cause I think it's selfish. Be the happiest person please.All of my love.The hard winter, just leave it to me.