I feel like I have been Lily’s roommate for centuries. Now it is time to grow apart. She’s been acting a little nuts lately, hounding me all the time. I don’t know if it is the hormone or something. Anyway, I can’t wait to get rid of her. I am sure the feeling is mutual.
She claimed that she wanted to remodel her apartment. But I have a feeling that it is just an excuse to kick me out. At first I was really annoyed by the thought of it. But then when I calmed myself down and tried to be reasonable. Fact is I can’t live with her forever. I need to stand on my own feet and get myself an apartment. I know it seems impossible in Shenzhen. Plus I don’t have any savings. From time to time, I feel desperate. People keep telling me to get married, so that I don’t have to shoulder all the pressure by myself.
My cousin Fang wanted to hook me up with a rich Hong Kong guy who is 11 years older than me. She hinted that if we get married, I could just be a full-time housewife. Unfortunately, that is not where I see myself in the future. I have never dreamed to be a housewife, not even when I was an innocent little girl. Besides,there is another thing that I don’t like about the arrangement. Fang insisted that the matchmakers (my aunt and her friend) from both sides should get involved. They would set the time and place, invite the HK guy and me. When we sit there, fidgeting about what to say, the matchmakers would stare at us for amusement. I am in no mood to entertain them. If they are bored with their own lives and need a piece of romance badly, they can just watch some Korean soap operas.