Is the weather unusual this year or is my heart much more detailed than last year, or is it because of the so-called doomsday world coming? I will try my best to do what I can, before the end comes. My heart became much calmer, and I saw the traces of my every step on the road by recalling the past. What I used to be like, what I might be like later, tomorrow I will remain unchanged, but my heart is new day by day.
What kind of day will be interesting, will let people like to recall, like to follow, that is, the day no longer around who to hang around, no longer around the pressure for tomorrow and worry about, no longer want to grasp everything in hand. I understand the abandonment, I understand that living in a certain field can improve the richness of my life. I became a responsible person.
I didn't know that everything I did was closer to death, because I was burning myself completely. The fire around me made my skin and bones scream sadly. But I was happy with this scream. I was happy that I finally realized my childhood dream through my unremitting efforts. In the end, I am still thinking for others or, but if I pursue it, my happiness is that I can think freely, I can walk freely, and I have a strong body.
Like a poem I wrote for myself, my heart was no longer sad. I took the beautiful woman's hand and danced. This is a poem I wrote last year. It is full of light sadness. At the end of the sadness, I seem to see that I am a flying phoenix of fire. The flame is my nest and my home. I don't know if I'm going to be like a moth to a wonderful fire. As a quiet man with the spirit of Christ's self-sacrifice, I'm going to be strong to the fire. All the turning points begin with my horrible lesson of beating people's hearts directly.
I have to admit the art and beauty of Chinese ancient philosophy. He let me see myself clearly, take a lighter view, and embark on the road of life again, and go on the journey of new life. It's been four years since I went this way. In these four years, I really became strong and sunny because of the disaster. I haven't forgotten the way I should go. Should I study in the West? I chose the latter to stay in China quietly.
Through constant reflection and exploration, I found that it was not myself that caused the tragedy of life, but the memory of my parents, who said that future generations retained the blood of their parents and carried their stories. In my opinion, every one of us, regardless of race and nationality, carries the memory of our fathers. I now accept more rationally the imperfect self, my imperfect home, and my imperfect home, including my country. I renewed my courage to love and embrace my family, my parents, my hometown and my country with all my heart and soul.
I found that the tragedy began because of the tragic memory to get rid of slavery and dishonorable fate. Everyone's deduction is just a relay race. Whatever stick you are, you will follow the strength and speed and perception that others give you. I have come to understand more and more why a dying man or woman calls his children and wife in front of him, even if they don't speak, from the faint movements of the eyes and the dying hands, all of us can understand. This is a special relay race. Or tell them to be honest and down-to-earth, or to reshape their past glories, or to keep their prosperous families prosperous.
For me, before this happens, I am ready in advance. I don't want my parents to leave me any historical responsibility. My mission is to let my parents live healthily and happily, and then leave the world satisfied. So I have to burn myself. Maybe my life will be tragic step by step. But if this tragic small income can spare my parents unnecessary worries and burdens of life, I deeply feel how meaningful it is for God to make me carry the cross. As a young man, I didn't understand the secret hidden in these wonderful things. When I was over thirty-five years old, I slowly understood that I used to ride like a fallen knight, looking for people who needed comfort everywhere. Later, I found that I was the one who really needed comfort.
I fought desperately against my parents, I fought desperately against all secular forces, I was pretended to be bruised all over. But I affirmed that I was just a little commemoration of the eternal cause, until one day I found that I could no longer compete with the secular, I also entered the secular world. In my opinion, firewood, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce and vinegar tea is not really an unimportant thing. After all, I grew up like this when I was a child. If my parents only gave me spiritual food every day, then I could not live to this day.
I recall a passage from Mr. Lu Xun: I thought I didn't need to consider oil, salt, soy sauce and vinegar.
No one else could imagine what my life had been like in the first five years. I had never thought more about my parents at that time. Even if I had not, I even lay in bed and depended on what my father had earned through hard work to support me. I found that my life was like some kind of creature growing in a dung pit. Speaking of gnawing, I have no right to say anything about others, because I was thinking that five years ago I wanted to live as humbly as a beggar.
I can't find the direction of life at all. I'm cowardly because I lack the support of life. I live by a humble way of life. Although I read a lot of books, but I did not live as proud as sages, I live in the shadow of others, I live in the light of others. I clearly understand that a person should live with dignity by his hands. I clearly forget that Tianhangjian gentleman is constantly striving for self-improvement.
So when a fish wants to make a living in dehydration and swim ashore, he will be afraid of life on land. Even the air on land will make him unused and suffocate. When the light of Fate shines on him and freedom is restored, he will not laugh at those who venture ashore. Because nobody likes having only one identity in his life. This is the confusion of human beings. The danger has come when human beings do not want to be imprisoned by an inherent form. Who can cherish the existing freedom, who can get more freedom in a wider sense.
Therefore, I will not laugh at those who bow their heads and struggle, or those who are beset by bad luck, because they will get the happiness they deserve and the blessings of God at their next stop. God loves hiding, but he always cares about human beings, otherwise the death of Jesus will have no meaning.
There is no market for immortal teachings in the West. Christianity in the West has become empty buildings. People no longer worship God in the way that their ancestors were built in. People think that who is God, God is himself. So why do Americans say God saves the self-help?
All this shows that human beings are still physical, and human beings are still weak after all. It is inevitable that human beings will not escape the retribution of the God of death. People still need God's help and God's power. I remember that Washington, the first president in American history, was a president who often prayed. It is sad to see that both the current President and the last President of the United States are faithful atheists.
The head of a family is the man in the family, the head of a country is the leader of the country. How can a leader who loves and seeks peace and knowledge bring happiness to the country?