给自己一个开始

想写点儿东西的想法其实已经很久了，然而我总是因为各种原因给耽搁了。或许是因为我很忙，或许忙只是理由。这世界上比我忙的人很多，比我闲的人也有很多，还好，我一向有自知之明。

我想写点儿什么的，准确的说就是记录我的生活，我的心情，我的感悟，我的成长。这想法最开始源于大学，那时写空间日记，没不了多久，回过头去看，又一一删除。写纸质的，又撕了烧了。有一部分是源于觉得过去的那些想法幼稚，另一部分是想封存在心中，毕竟自己的心中是最安全的地方，我不愿别人走进去。时隔几年之后，只能在记忆中去想起那些过往，想想，真的是“少年不识愁滋味，为赋新词强说愁”。后来毕业，工作，结婚，生娃……我觉得日子呀，一天一天的过，在一个范围内重复着。某一个深夜，静下心来，以一段时间一段时间的来看，社会，亲人和朋友，是的，我连同我周围的一切都变了。变了也就罢了，但是，这世上不只有生离，还有死别。是突然想到，那人已经永远不可能再见到了，无论怎样，都见不到了，心紧又寒凉…..我想到生命，想到宇宙，想到不可预知的下一秒，我想，要记录着，留给那些我想念的人。或许未来某一天看现在，又会觉得幼稚，但没关系，这就是成长。

也给自己立个flag，每周都update.每周更文1~2篇吧，加油。

I feel like writing down something, but I not did it in the past because I’m lazy, maybe lazy is my excuse. There are many people really worked very hard to support their stomach, but some people do nothing when they said they are busy men. Lucky I have got a good understanding of my weaknesses, strengths and my soul.

I wrote down some articles to record my mood in the QQ zone when I am an undergraduate, but days later, this articles all be canceled by me because I think it is so childish or I don’t want anyone to know my sensitive heart at that moment. Today, I’m in my twenties, I think that words and articles are always childish. Then I graduated, I got married, I have my kids, I realize the world is changing as an unimaginative speed. I don't predicated whether the tomorrow or the accident will come first. So I want to record my life for the one I missed and for myself. Maybe this is still childish ,but no mind, it is a process of growth.