I am nothing but in the society

       

being

FYI I'm a...

        I'm doing the things I wanna do，whereas not in a way I want，neither getting the result I desire. I looked at people who carries the same dream as me，their experience kinda reminds me that contradiction between quantity and quality is unavoidable. But I'm running out of time. This sounds bizarre，I have only spent a small portion of my life，why am I hurrying？The truth is，time is never mine. There will be hundreds of deadlines in my life，DEADlines. For my homework，for my college，even for my age：“hey！time is up，you are 18 now.You are an adult now.You should be doing this this and that...balabala.” Yeah，endless deadlines drawn by others，and I put up with them without much complain.I keep saying I'm a pure individual，a free soul. Who am I lying to？The way I live is adapting to the society. I hated labelling，I hated politics，I hated every single thing that generalizes people and eliminates human essence.But now I see，I am part of the social dynamic and it's impossible to separate a “human”from society，not only in our decade but all time.Doing pure stuff is not realistic，that's the rule I learnt recently. You are never about a human，you are a citizen，living under certain circumstance，using certain language，and in the end，thinking in certain way that is not pure.