今天我早早醒来，看到街道发的短信，作为重点区域我在的街道所有小区实行封闭管理，48小时内完成两轮核酸检测。
昨天晚上我去超市路上看到测核酸时，留下测的核酸可以算作第一次。长出一口气，昨天捅鼻子实在太难受了，眼泪刷的流下来还缓了半天。
Last night I went to the supermarket on the way to see the nucleic acid test, leaving the nucleic acid test can be counted as the first time. Out of breath, poke nose yesterday is too uncomfortable, tears brush down also slowed down half a day.
我一直认为我是特别宅的人，在家里待个1、2星期完全没有问题。但是现在小区突然封闭，不让外出，我的外出DNA动了，疯狂想出门逛逛。当然，为了安全考虑我没有，我只是站在楼道里，拍了拍公园开的花，假装去过公园了。
I've always thought of myself as a bit of a shut in, and it's perfectly fine to stay at home for a week or two. But now the neighborhood is suddenly closed, not to go out, my out-of-town DNA moved, Crazy Want to go out to walk around. Of course, for safety's sake, I didn't. I just stood in the hallway, patted the flowers in the park, and pretended to go to the park.
主动待在家和被动待在家的感觉真的不太一样，被动待在家就非常想出门，身体里每个细胞都在叫嚣：“带我出去！我要出去看云看花看书，我要出去感受春天的气息。”
Being at home on your own initiative is not quite the same as being passively at home. Being passively at home makes you want to go out very much, every cell in the body is clamoring: "take me out! I want to go out to see the clouds read a book, I want to go out to feel the breath of spring."
我只能说：“很好，请继续保持，等到这波疫情过去，咱就出去转转。”
I can only say: "very good, please continue to maintain, until this wave of epidemic has passed, we go out for a walk."
上周去公园里溜达的时候，看到很多花正在开放中，第一次在公园里溜达感受到了万物生长的力量感，这些生命们都在努力绽放、迎接春天的力量感莫名传递到我身上，好像我身体里的生命也开始努力绽放。(说得有点玄乎，大概是生命的力量)
When I walked in the park last week, I saw many flowers in bloom. I felt the power of growth for the first time in the park, these lives are trying to bloom, meet the power of spring inexplicably passed on to me, as if my life in the body also began to bloom. It's a bit of a mystery. It's probably the power of life
2020年学教练时，一直听到大家说有觉知的生活，我也在努力地有觉知的生活。之前一直都是感受自己的情绪、自己的状态，在有觉知的生活方面有所提升。
When I started coaching in 2020, I kept hearing people talk about living with awareness, and I was trying to live with awareness. It has always been about feeling your own emotions, your own state, and improving your awareness of life.
上周在公园里感受到这份力量感时，突然觉得我离有觉知的生活还差很远。觉知的范围不仅在于自己，觉知的范围可以无限大。
When I felt this sense of power in the park last week, I suddenly felt I was far from living a conscious life. The scope of awareness is not limited to oneself, but can be infinite.
再说回来生命力，两周前我收到了一束洋牡丹，盒马小哥在运输的过程中伤了洋牡丹的“脖子”，所以他们一直是低着头，我只好一层搭一层的让它们努力抬起了头。
On the other hand, vitality, two weeks ago I received a bunch of peonies. Little brother Hema hurt the "neck" of the peonies in the course of transportation, so they kept their heads down, i had to build them up one layer at a time to keep their heads up.
有些洋牡丹的“脖子”伤得厉害一些，已经英年早逝。但是还有几支在努力地盛开，虽然它们依然抬不起头，但是能看得出他们很努力。这两天，我突然发现图中的花骨朵也已经绽开，小洋牡丹在恶劣的环境中也努力盛开。
Some paeonia suffruticosa "neck" injury some severe, has died young. But there are still a few trying to bloom, although they still can not hold up their heads, but you can see that they work hard. These two days, I suddenly found that the picture of the flowers have opened, small peony in the harsh environment is also trying to bloom.
生命力是很顽强的，花骨朵是这样，人也是这样。遇到挫折，嚼嚼咽了，该干嘛继续干嘛，该生长还是生长，只要自己想，没什么可以阻挡得住。
The vitality is very tenacious, the flower bone flower is like this, the human is also like this. Encountered setbacks, chewing and swallowing, what should continue to do, the growth or growth, as long as you want, nothing can stop.
以上是今日随笔。
These are today's essays.