My Summer(continued...0718-0719)

0718  vote for / curious / recommend

It’s been more than a month since school started. The National Day was over and the weather was getting cold. I was no longer sad, but more and more silent. I always stayed at classroom to read books. There was a fantastic library in our school, for me, this was a harbor, I thought it could provide everything except, such as, food and sleep, for me. I was just very, very CURIOUS about other people how to think and how to feel.

All of sorrow and all of desires are the same for all of us. I just seemed lonelier. In fact, I was getting closer to the world. I have learned that I’m not alone unless I want to be lonely. But what worried me was my grades, except Chinese, others were getting worse and worse, especially mathematics. Years later, I still have nightmares about not passing the math exam.

Would you VOTE FOR me if I told you that I could reduce exams and assignment? I thought you would. Students don’t like too much homework, just as adults don’t like hard work, too many hard times can make us lose the joy of life. I began to fight anxiety by running two or three laps around the playground’s ring rubber track after evening classes. The silent and chilly night helped me to calm down, but finally, one night, I decided to drop out, I thought this is the right decision, I can finally get away from these stupid exams and homework. At that time, if you were there for me, what do you RECOMMEND me to do?

I was too young to know what I will lose. Everything has a price, and it is especially high.

0719 reunion / torn down / rarely

Adults RARELY do things because of others, but they often say to their children, everything I did is for you, my parents were no exception, I am their whole hope and future. They never realize that their dreams will fall through in unexpected ways. They are so naïve, believing in one day I will be somebody. Unfortunately, in all our lifetime, something may take a long time to assemble and decorate with our desires, but can be TORN DOWN very quickly. They have no chance to have a REUNION of their dreams. I broke it with my own hands, eternally.