unfair life

it is so early,right?a majority of people, i believe still in their dreams. whatever their dreams good or not, they are keeping in another world is different from me. so,they can avoid the harsh reality temporantly,i have to face this unfair reality ealier than them.

i always tell me that i should be positive,i also think i will have promissing future,however, a series of truth prove that that is only my dream.perhaps,i should be positive to confront straightly a sting of failure experiences.i can not guarantee my future is still promissing.the situation is changed,so suddent,i often keep that i have prepared anything to it,when it has approached and i am able to undertake,i can understand i am not strong enough.

sometimes i also tell me or encourage me with other's failure, in part it is a little useful to me. it is just like a drug can give me a transient joy,when time is passed,the effection will be disappear too.i have to find other drug to distract my attention.i konw,such way can not cure my illness forever,this kind of mask leaves me seem optimistic just to show for my family or my friend, i do not want to them worry about me and make them sad.the most important thing, i do not want them produce a wrong thought that you are so fragile that you do not have qualification to get much praise from us.i admit i am peacockish at some extent.facing a such brutal and unfair society,no one is not need to wear a mask and to get complement from others,although,these words are not sincere,we can also enjoy them.