41: Move Towards My Fears

Move towards my fears

07/08/2017
Yesterday I read an article Develop Resiliency: Move Towards Your Fears. I inspired me so much. It resonated with me. Because I am a man who is unconfident and don't know his edge of competence. I procrastinate a lot after graduation. I am a paradox-I am willing to learn but I am not sure what exactly I want to learn, yet.

I am on a new road nobody walks before me. Sometimes, I am thinking about: "what am I doing now? why am I so afraid of stepping out and having a try? " These days, I find the answer, I am not confident about my ability to do things well. Actually, I don't know what I can do. I want to be writer, but before that, I have to find a way to earn a living. My parents think English is useless. I want to prove them that they are wrong. English is freedom. I can watch youtube without limitation. I can google what I need to solve problem. I can get higher quality materials compared to the people who don't know English.

I can't learn chess without playing bunch of games and losing them.

so we avoid real learning and just read about it. Real learning is postponed while we shirk from uncertainty.

To gain real learning, I have to face the uncertainty and my fears. I know I will some times or many times. But I have a great vision that I will be a writer and I won't let others down, especially who cares about me.

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2. Three moments of joy

28/30

Moment 1: I have finished two thirds of Steve Jobs Autobiography.

Moment 2: I am confident about my future. I will write down what I feel whenever I am confused.

Moment 3: I had happy time with my family.

a picture a word: balcony