Chapter 12

Words

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She can feel the room is poised on the edge - of what, she's not sure, but she does not want to destroy this beautiful, sensitive balance.

poise: completely ready to do something or for something to happen, when it is likely to happen soon.

仿句: The cat poised for a second before it went after the lizard.

For the rest of the summer, and for years after that, they will grope for the words that say what they mean. 

grope for: to try hard to find the right words to say or the right solution to a problem but without any real idea of how to do this.

仿句: She suddenly paused, groping for the right words to say.

A faint tremor shakes his voice.

tremor: a slight shaking movement in your body that you cannot control, especially because you are ill, weak, or upset.

仿句: I can hear the tremor in his voice.

At his feet, the dog utters a low, moaning whine. 

Jack's dog backs away, huddling against Hannah's legs.

whine: to make a high-pitched, screeching noise.

仿句: He cannot stop whining about his job.

huddle: to lie or sit with your arms and legs close to your body because you are cold or frightened.

仿句: She huddled under the blanket and a tremor went through her body.

Nath needs a target, somewhere to point his anger and guilt, or he'll crumble.

He had thought that when he found Jack, when his fist hit Jack's smug face, he'd feel better. That everything would change, that the hard glob of anger that has grown inside him would crumble like sand. 

crumble: to break apart into lots of little pieces, or make something do this.

仿句: The resentment growing inside him crumbled, replaced by a sense of empathy. 

Notes

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结局是温暖的，抚慰人心的，这反而比Lydia不知哪里来的自信导致溺死在湖中和Jack处心积虑隐藏自己的同性取向，更让我意外。

父亲James和母亲Marilyn终于注意到了小女儿Hannah，母亲的怀抱和父亲的肩膀给了她难得的亲密感和安全感。James决心回归家庭，Marilyn意外地接受了他。他们互相安慰彼此，修正对彼此的认知，重归旧好。

哥哥Nath不顾Hannah阻拦，还是给了Jack一拳。这一拳对于Nath来说，是发泄无处释放的愤怒和‘背叛’Lydia的愧疚；对于Jack来说，是爱，和为了满足Nath发泄的欲望做出的牺牲。

Hannah明白这一切，她挡在Jack身前，推开哥哥。Nath任由自己的身体倒入湖中。湖水的冰冷，黑暗，和窒息感，让他想起Lydia，他要记住这一刻，这就是Lydia死前经历的一切。巧合的是，Hannah也曾在夜里躺在冰冷的湖水边，想象姐姐在湖里的感觉。Nath此刻也许不会记得自己曾经把Lydia故意推进湖里，又很快把她救了出来；他更不会知道，Lydia把自己用同样的方式推向死亡，有多大程度上，是为了和Nath赌气，为了割裂对Nath的依赖，为了证明自己。