Sometimes I'd like to talk sth with English.
In English,you'll have courage to say sth out which you're hard to discuss by Chinese.
The wedding is coming.
And it seems all about a dream.
I never regret that I chose you as my husband.
However,I'm sure that we could be better than ever.
Things change a lot since we've been together.
To some extent,I chose to broke up with my few friend for you.
As a matter of a fact ,I left them because we've both changed.
We seem to have different value in love or life or other things.
I'm glad that there's still a lot of friend company with me and never change the friendship between us.
We are now going to have baby .
Things go speed like a thunder.
But every seems happy since we like children so much include my parents.
It is said that you'll decided to marry one person as soon as you see him.
We've been together 209 days so far and now I've been present for 4 months .
So how could I decide to marry you at that moment?
Actually,we are not match in age /family blackground/knowledge/ and so on.
Then,I have to think over and over.
Do I really still feel happy as before?
Would we be beaten by the economic problem in the further as many couples were?
How could you marry a person who never send a flower to you ?
How could you have a baby with whom never give you surprise on holiday ?
It is said that over-thinking is very common to a pregnant girl.
And what I most afraid is that I have lost trust in you.
How long I could be in patience until you become rich?
Maybe you've already tried you best to raise money ,but you failed.
Did I deserve this ? Because I chose to pretend that you treat me well.
Did I look so pitty if I tell everybody that I took all the expense since we started the relationship.?
In the past ,I'm proud of myself that I have the ability in surviving my boyfriend and my parents and myself.
To be honest,I'm afraid to lose the ability to survive my baby even my self at present.
I even have no confidence that I could be no jealous when my friend supply a good environment to their children.
I always cannot helping myself to compare my husband with others'.
May be this women .
What's more,I have no job ,no progress,no hope ,no plan .......
I become the person who I hates before.
And further more I put every fault on another one.
In the fact,Nothing can destroy you except yourself.
Complaining is useless.
It never be late since you decided to change yourself and the environment.
