Born a Crime C7: 2017-10-08

Chapter 7: Fufi

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Thought

That experience shaped what I've felt about relationships for the rest of my life: You do not own the thing that you love

      “这是我的房子，这是我的车子，这是我的财产……这个那个也是我的。”我的。我们拥有太多而害怕失去，害怕失去便有了负担束缚，也不再真正享受。

        "I wasn't exactly devastated about the cats " 第一只宠物猫的惨死，Trevor并未十分悲伤，因与其相处不长感情不深，换而言之，自己并未觉得这只猫属于自己，没有占有就算真的失去了也未有所感伤。Fufi，一只呆萌斑点狗，Trevor挚爱。可能出于狗之乐，Fufi白日不甘寂寞每日去其他人家中串门被别人收养，晚上回来。Trevor发现后，大哭大闹十分伤心，还让妈妈陪演“Fufi争夺战”，自觉"No one has ever betrayed me more than Fufi"。并未真正失去却如此伤心，对Fufi感情愈深愈怕失去，便愈希望为己所有，也便产生所谓的Fufi的背叛。狗是狗，人是人，并不因为爱狗，它便属于你。试想，如若Trevor未明白“我们所爱之物并不为自己所有”之理，他最后还能享受圈养Fufi的快乐吗？

　　似听蒋勋《细说红楼梦》提及一段书评：“濠上之鱼，庄、惠之所乐也，而渔父袭之以网罟；舞雩之木，孔、曾之所憩也，而樵者继之以斤斧。若物非有形，心无所住，则虽殉财之夫，贵私之子，宁有对曹霸、韩干之马，而计驰骋之乐，见毕宏、韦偃之松，而思栋梁之用，求好逑于雅典之偶，思税驾于金字之塔者哉？”

　    佩服评论者的才华。细思，自己曾经鄙视见动物园满池金鱼，开屏孔雀议论是否味道鲜美，谈及烹调之道的人。只知吃实用，不知欣赏低级趣味。可试想，假如自己对于生活中所爱之物十分执迷，想独占而害怕失去，心有所住，又如何欣赏享受，不也如同樵夫渔者之辈吗？不也是低级趣味吗？岂不是五十步笑百步。自我打脸。

        收所爱之物为己所有，个人认为是人之天性，无需在道德层面去贬低。只是当为己所有自己便被其所累而束缚，反而不利于自己更好的生活，所以不待见这种拥有。或许，我们可以刻意练习另一种拥有，是在心灵上拥有，不在物欲上占有。不囿于藏所爱为己专有，不劳于事物执迷追逐，而是心无所住而欣赏其美享受其乐。

        分享收藏过的一句话：所有娑婆世界的一切，都不是用来拥有的，而是用来舍的，一个人舍得下一切则是真正壮大，无牵无挂；一个人拥有一切正是沉沦苦痛的泉源

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词汇

I wasn't exactly devastated about the cats

feeling extremely shocked and sad:极为悲痛的

同义： upset, anguished, dismayed

例句：She was left feeling totally devastated.

仿写：For her husband leaving, she didn't have any devastated feeling.

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This woman's Maltese poodle had been impregnated by the bull terrier from next door, a strange mix.

impregnated 受孕，想说发现还有“充满；灌注”

to make a substance spread completely through something, or to spreadcompletely through something:

✏️ impregnate with something

The mats have to be impregnated with disinfectant.

例句：The professor Dorsey is always impregnating his students with creative mind

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It never occurred to us that she could actually scale a five-foot wall

scale v. (formal) to climb to the top of something very high and steep

例句：the first woman to scale the worldʼs five highest peaks

✏️ scale the heights 登顶，

例句： (figurative) He has scaled the heights of his profession

后文出现：...upscale establishments

upscale

upscale something to make something better, bigger or more powerful

adj. 高档的，高收入的；v.改善，升挡

例句：The pilot project will begin in three areas and then be upscaled to the entire state.

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