When the sky was blue, the sun was always in the sky, and clouds never appears just like shadows, Ray thought she could leave alone on the earth from winter to spring, and from spring to winter again.
Ray has her well planned daily life. Every Monday,she will go to the shop to buy some new presents for her families, not for friends,just families. She didn't want to make friends with others for the reason that they don't attempt her from top to toe. At the first sight, they just made her feel sick, and her sickness seems will last for ever. Ray thought they don't worth her smile, so she never smiles to them. On every Thursday day , she would like to go to the small park near her house which she could read books on lawns. And on some weekends, when the weather was cold enough and this sky wasn't blue enough, Ray would feel sad. Just like eaten up by something, Ray feel faint on these grey days. Tasting the sorrow and loneliness, Ray have to write some poems to prevent the childish and stubbornness. In fact, not poems, just some sentence, some pedestrian piece of writing, full of her sorrow and loneliness.
People and butterflies flying around her, she can't tell the difference between them, so she just ignore them. Ray can't understand what they are singing, and at that time, Ray can't understand the meaning of Joy.
Girls at her age are always laugh at everything and everyone, in her eyes, they are just laughing at nothing. She failed to understand why something are so amusing to them.
But everyone like smile and laughter, the happiness full of vernal feelings. Ray was not serious, just got bored. So she persisted never show her smile to anyone. And for long, she even thought she maybe is losing the ability of smiling inch by inch. She can't fit in the world where she lived, can't remember names of the crawds in spite of her great effort. She knew she can't try to be one of them, so she chose to backed out and keep staying as a blank.
For her luck, she thought for days, eventually knew that, on her side of the world, none of those boys and girls could make her smile. But at the other side, everyone was the one.
She suddenly figured out the only way which leads to her expectant ending: cross those mountains, those rivers, those deserts, and arrive at the other side, the side with something always attracting her and worths her smile. She wants to laugh but she failed, not worrying, she knew everything would be fine when she arrives in the land where her love and joy has dropped.
She missed them, could easily feel her heart beating steadfastly. Ray knew that she has to leave now, on her own and with the courage and hope from the other side.