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The first evening，I suddenly felt that my heart had broken and I woke up in the dead of night.

The second day， I sat before my computer as if in a trance .When I went off work，I couldn't help crying in the bus and Metro. When the night came，I listened to the song sung by him and cried again.

The third day，I found it so hard for me to make my heart broken. Maybe，I have lost my sensibility.

The forth day，I felt that the whole world had changed and lost its indentity. It's so strange and ugly.

The fifth day，I felt that I had had a dream and all is a dream.

The sixth day，I felt that it so hard for me to be happy again.

I don't know what to say and how to face him.

The twenty-second day, I find I love him beyond my imagination and this is a truth.

I still want to be with him.

I find what happened to us is like a beautiful story . How beautiful it is!  How heartbroken it is!

The twenty-forth day, we began to say nighty-night to each other.

The twenty-sixthday，I want to talk with him，but I hesitate to disturb him. What should I do? I miss him.

The twenty-seventh day, he never knows how deeply I love him.

The twenty-ninth day, does our story end?

The thirty-third day, I seem to have lost touch with him. Is he fine? I only know that I'm not fine. I still miss him.

Maybe  he lives well now. After all, I never attract to him. 

The thirty-forth day，I tell him we can be friends. I decide to regard him as a special friend. We can't live without each other but we can't be with each other. I can't change him or what I can do is to keep him company. I don't know what will happen in the future. I just hope that he is fine and  everything will goes well.

The thirty-eighth day, I pretend to be fine.

I pretend to be fine.

I pretend to be fine.

I pretend to be fine.

I pretend to regard him as a special friend, hiding my secret , feeling,  sorrow, but why my heart is so afflictive?

The seventy-ninth day,  does keeping him company and leaving is the only thing I can do?

The two hundred sixty-sixth day, I still can't help sending message to him, but he doesn't  answer. What is love? What is marriage? One day, will I marry someone I'm just not that into?

Where is he now? What is he doing? Is he fine? I have so many questions about him. Dear God, let us be together, will you?