Day 79 DD 65 (205-207) 2018-01-13

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I was immature and unwise to be impatient with my parents. How can I improve myself at this kind of situation with them?

First, I need to find out why I keep being like this? When I feel there is something to be done, I easily became impatient with other stuffs. This seems to be a habit or a pattern of mine, I need to adjust my feelings and remind myself some things just cannot be done so fast, and it is a good strategy to wait. Most importantly, do not let the pending matters affect your current mode! Focus on the present.

Secondly, I find their behaviors annoying, why? I do not like people yelling or talking aloud. I do not like them to regard me like something they should be able to show off to others, not someone they love. I actually cannot recall many occasions they show their love to me, just feed me, buy me clothes, send me to school like it is an obligation. And I care that they have not offered me any financial support after my graduation. I am not saying they should, what matters is their attitude. I just graduated, I have got a lot pressure to live alone in this metropolitan, and they seem do not sense any of this, also, I did not discus this with them. I should tell them about my current situation, my current life. I assume part of me is ashamed of where I am with my life, and I am reluctant to talk about it.