You must be mad！

I am lying in bed but cannot fall asleep. I was supposed to do some reading but my mom got mad when she saw me reading. I pretended that I was watching TV in the living room when my mom asked me to go to bed.I am a nut case in her eyes.Because she doesn’t think a person should keep studying at the age like me.what the most important and right thing for me to do is getting  married and having a family of my own .She had long conversations heart to heart with me for many times. I can totally understand what she means but I cannot obey her from my inner voice. I told my parents that I am determined to go back to school.I had quit my job before I got home. I felt guilty when Ｉ reluctantly said these words to them.I used to be restless and shallow,I really was. I don’t know if this is a right choice at the hardest times for my family .I just want to start all over again when I don’t lose my courage. My parents are getting really older and older. I might loose them at any moment of any day  .Am I Mad or Not?