正文之前，rip to Avicii。Wake me up的mv里他塑造的理想国其实曾经对我触动很大：http://music.163.com/mv/156008?userid=267436281 (@网易云音乐)
最近许多伟人名人的去世总是让我一整天心情都好不起来。但也不禁让我想起了其实许多人，包括我自己，都曾经有对死亡轻视的时候。在gta或far cry里杀个人好像那么简单，导致有时在现实里生命也无足轻重。可是，其实这都是我们心里的误差——当失去的时候才懂得珍惜。我突然想写写这样一个角色，一个似乎毫不在意却是一无所知的女人。
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It was as if fairly simple.
It was a ceaseless thought when watching TV, that why killing a man would seem so difficult.
“Please kill me to save my wife, I’ve lived enough.”
His face is torn in grief and determination. He’s right, it’s indubitably cleverer to sacrifice one for the greater good.
But the great doctor Watson, even Sherlock Holmes, who suppose to be aloof and decisive, has fear and irresolution capturing his unfathomable eyes.
Why are you hesitating? she’d asked. You are not doing it wrong, and there’s nothing to be miserable and disturbed about death, everyone deserves one.
The eternal peace and silence, she’d look forward it.
He turned his eyes away. The woman is sitting with shoulder leaning on his, but mind in a far away galaxy. At first he was annoyed by it, who or what is in her pretty head, that has such to take her away from him in a mere second? But later he noticed that maybe what this is about——what got him fall in love overwhelmingly with her. Her mind is a multidimensional ever-changing labyrinth, you can never know what’s at the centre, or even if there is any centre. She’s always indifferent.
Suddenly she raises her head. Her eyes are glazing, he has a sudden dizziness.
“I’m sorry…” He feels like a six-years old. Has her noticed? He should have though of this.
But her face confused.
“For what?” Her contemplation stills, as seagulls depart from the shore.
Their wings left a slur of shadow and light.
Death is ambiguous.