2021-02-20 Journal

Kind words give you sanity in a turmoil. And coffee makes you sober in the morning after a long, rough night. 

It is sunny, warm, and the snow is melting. Squirrels are playing on the trees and birds are pick-pecking on the melting ice. What a day for a nice, long walk in the mountains!

I contacted one of the Caribbean medical school representatives this morning----a step that had been difficult to make. But I did. After taking a virtual tour of the campus, I started thinking to myself: this might not be so bad. Ocean on both sides of the campus, weather always sunny and warm, mountain not so far away, it might be a nice place to stay for four years. Others made it, why can't I.  

I have decided that: I will not devalue myself not matter what happens; I will not be bummed by not being able to get into a top program; I will not do any harm to my own health despite of the undeniable urge. I will live a good life.