16 April 2017: Femininity

我有个很可爱的爸爸,

I have a very cute daddy,

总爱笑着说我的拖鞋很好穿。

Who Always admires my slipper(on the Left), i felt heartache whenever i saw that, thinking how could i bare to see myself having a better footwear while he has a normal one,

找了两年了吧, 终于找到一双适合他的。

As a result, i have been searching for the past 2 years to found a suitable for him

呵呵! 我们有父女鞋 很开心!

And now we are having a pair of father-daughter footwear

妈妈不喜欢所以没买给妈妈。

Disclaimer Mummy doesnt like it, so i didnt get one for her.

Reminscing those days when i was living with Ex( someone wealthy), i dont think i hv told anyone, for all the time i am with them. I felt guilty and painful. "I am here enjoying and being comfortable with life, yet my family is at home. Needing me. They are still suffering"

I believe in the perspective of his family, i am an unfilial daughter as i would spend my weekend with them instead of my own parent. However, no one knows, the conflict i have inside. As i treat them( my ex and his family) as much as my own family.

Well, for all that isnt in the arena with me. I have no feedback for them. As they are ignorance of situation in here.

If they would, they wouldnt have done. What was done. They wouldn't harm what was suppose to care and understood.

Him who hurt this family, For thate forgive, & being wise, may i detach from their ignorance and be free from their sharp and spear, their words/comments.

May he be blessed with wholesomeness, ...

I am worried for him/ them.

As i said so, a voice of KangRui would said:" You dont have to, sometimes you care too much and lead into the cyclone of misery."

Indeed, Lynn, i shall detach from them i am free. Is all i have to embrace.

Me, Being in an Atypical family, being 1 of 2 pillar in my family. Other than being more independent and dynamic. I want to keep my feminine as well.

Luckly i am blessed as a Gemini. I am in nature all rounded, wholehearted.

May i continue to be nuture by challenger and grow beautifully strong. To be a compassionate and wiseful daughter, wife and mother, eventually grandmother, great grandmother in times to come.

May i be a figure of great compassion in my family, that brings happiness and joy into them.

Yes, even that mean i have to go through suffering to attain it.

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