Dragon,
I'm very worried about your complaints"I'm tired".
You really need to make sure whether you are in good health. I have advised you to take a physical examination several times. If there's nothing wrong with you, maybe you should think about this question: Are you ineligible to complain like this?
In my opinion, when a person has realized all his promises and will leave the world regretlessly, he can sigh: I'm tired, let me go. I have finished all my missions. Or a loser complains again and again: I'm tired, I can't make it, it's not my fault, it's because I'm tired.
But you say you want to be Somebody, you even look down on your parents, because they are average people. Then how can you allow yourself to be a loser like that?
You just did what you had to do, they are normal things which college students are supposed to do, right? People don't complain about their responsibility, they know what they are ; people don't complain about the difficulties and frustrations while achieving their ambitious, they know they have to pay more for their higher desires, because they are beyond the common .
The celebrities are human beings too, they feel tired too, but I guess what they do frequently is to modify their directions, views or psychology. What the passive words do is to make your energy and will fade away.
So what are the effects of your complaints? Do you wish to get some sympathy? I don't know what else you want from that.
Maybe you sighed much because you could get a little from us. Yes, even if we try our best, we can't satisfy your desires, because it's your duty to fulfill your promises for yourself. Everyone should try his best to satisfy his own wishes and life. We don't force you to realize our dreams, you determines your direction, you hold all your choices.
The higher you aim, the harder you should work, it means more sweat, more frustrations, more pains maybe. I don't think if you are ready for that. I'm not sure if you would like to say NO to the common life, such as swiping the cell phone, turning a deaf ear to alarm and turning a blind eye to the plan.
The farther you go, the less we can help you. But home here is always a harbour for you. When you feel tired you can rest here. Don't let others know how tired you are, it means perhaps you would like to give in, it's the point which can be attacked easily.
Here is a page for you.
An interview: What would you like to say to yourself three years ago?
What would you like to say to yourself in three more years ?
Maybe you will know what problems you meet and what your direction is from the answer.
It's said it's very dangerous to talk about yourself with others. I wonder when you're brave enough to face danger to talk about yourself with me. Look forward to the arrival of the moment.