Another start up

It’s the Movement Control Order (MCO) day n. I almost forget what day is today, what date is today until I check my calendar.

This is the third MCO extension, which is the third fourteen days.

Anyway, this third fourteen days, I started to think about some things. I started back to turn on this application and started to read. I found out much big differences from before. Then only I realised, its been so long since the last I open the apps.

Yes, these two years plus, my life had been changing. I opened up a preschool in my home town. I was busy doing all the job to build up the school. I was enthusiastic, I was working so hard, I was just a beginner in handling a preschool.

My result was impressive. All superiors from the head quarter as well as my business partner praised me and was so happy for the success of the preschool running progress.

But I, wasn’t so all the time. I had been in-charging so many stuffs, doing so many little things from a cleaner to a cook to a driver to a teacher. I have to do all when no one is there. You’re right, when no one is there. Though we are a team, but, it’s always, no one is there.

My enthusiasm, my passionate had been slowly rubbed off. I’m tired, I’m disappointed, I’m so helpless.

I had my baby last year, and she’s a little cute girl. But, the pregnancy period until I gave birth was not that smooth. I was depressed. I was facing bulks of uncertainty that fell on me. I cried in the morning, I cried before sleep. Just because of all the issues and those helpless feel.

Dear my baby, please forgive me. I hope I could do something to make up this.

So, from today, I’m gonna be persistent enough, to keep learning, and keep writing.

WRITING is not just writing, it sometimes brought out feelings from words and it helps us to reorganise our mind. To conclude what we’ve done and what we’ve learned and how we’re going to express them.

I’ve been reading so much “鸡汤”(chicken soup) these days, they really lighten up my mind again to persist on what I shall do and what I want to do. I hope I could restructure everything and begin a new life.

Thank you.

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