坚持每天手抄一篇原文---Day 29

Firm Stare

My sister abd dad were all business as usual, though, Lynetta ate about two raisins（葡萄干） out of carrot（胡萝卜） salad（色拉）,then peeled the skin（剥皮） and meat off her chicken wing（鸡翅） and nibbled（啃） gristle（软骨组织） off the bone,while my father filled up airspace talking about office politics（办公室文化） and the need for a shakedown（平衡） in upper management.

No one was listening to him---no one ever does when he gets on one of his if-I-ran-the-circus jags---but for once Mom wasn't even pretending（假装，伪装）. And for once she wasn't trying to convince（说服，使明白） Lynetta that dinner was delicious either. She just kept eyeing me and Granddad,trying to pick up on why we were miffed（恼火） at each other.

Not that he had anything to be miffed（恼火） at me about. What had I done to him,anyway?Nothing.Nada.But he was, I could tell.And I completely avoided looking at him until about halfway through dinner,when I sneaked（偷偷的） a peek（看一眼）.

He was studying me,all right. And even though it wasn't a mean stare,or a hard stare,it was,you know,firm. Steady. And it weirded me out. What was his deal?

I didn't look at him again. Or at my mother. I just went back to eating and pretended to listen my dad. And the first chance I got, I excused myself and holed up（躲藏的） in my room.

I was planning to call my friend Garrett like I usually do when I'm bent（屈身） about someghting. I even punched in his number, but I don't know. I just hung up.

And later when my mom came in , I faked like I was sleeping. I haven't done that in years. The  whole night was weird like that. I just wanted to be left alone.

简意：

饭桌上，大家像往常一样各忙各的。姐姐忙着吃各种吃的，老爸还是继续谈他的办公室文化，并一再强调平衡各领导的关系是多么重要。

没有人听他说话，包括妈妈在内，甚至都不需要假装在听。妈妈发现了我和外公之间的异常情况，她看了我一眼，又看了外公一眼，试图发现其中的问题。

那个老头有什么好生气的，我有做什么不对的事情吗？并没有。我偷偷的看了他一眼，发现他也在盯着我看，那是一种哀怨的眼神。我很奇怪，他到底在打什么注意？

我不再和他对视，也不再看妈妈。只是低下头吃饭，假装听爸爸说话，然后找了个机会就躲到了房间。

我本来计划给我朋友格瑞特打电话的，往常，每当我遇到烦心事的时候我都会找他。这次我甚至已经在手机上摁好了电话号码，但最终还是没打出去。

过了一会儿，妈妈推门进来，我就假装睡着了，已经好多年没这么干过了。整个晚上我都觉得很奇怪，我就想一个人静静。