59: I stop growing

growth

07/30/2017

These days were really different for me. On the one hand, I was easily distracted when I was preparing for my job interview. I spent too much time on watching TV or my mobile phone. On the other hand, it felt like I stopped growing. Because instead of writing and reading daily, I only read English everyday. I lived an irregular life. Sometimes I get up on time. But sometimes I oversleep.

This isn't what I want to do. When everyone else is fast growing, I am stagnant. I am left behind. My Wechat signature is I see myself as a perpetual student and explorer. The former is true, I am learning how to be a teacher which is a totally new domain for me. To be an English teacher means that I have to know how to learn English well as well as how to impart that to students. I devoted all my attention and time to this task. This isn't what I want to.

Truth be told, I want to be a good teacher who can productively impart knowledge to students. But that not means I have to give up what I always do. There's nothing or nobody to complain, this is all my fault. I don't manage myself well. I want to transform from a student to a teacher as soon as possible. I want to fast grow.