Your disguse finally exposed

Actually，I'm not a good student，from primary school to high school，I always play a good student in my teachers' and parents eyes, I pretended study hard if they can see me, otherwise, I played as those naught boys and wasted time as normal.  Because I enjoy that feeling when people appreciate you. And this awful habit continued until now. Sometimes I even doubt the reason why I study hard every day just for others admiration!

After one year in college，I finally got punish for my behavior，All my disguse was exposed just because the final exam grades. Today, because of my grades not good enough，I lost the chance to be the “three good” student，I was depressed all the afternoon…

I can never be the number one like before，I can't complain there are too much pressure or make excuse that there are too many students do better than you before we went into college. To be fair，my foundition and growing environment not good as them，but I told myself please never find any excuse for your mistake. There always so many successful people who didn't have such good condition when they were young, but they still live better than those who looked like having a good furture.

I thought a lot today，I can't do as before， I must correct my attitude towards study，not for someone who can see me study hard， but really learn something useful and improve my grades，your grades can really prove whether you study hard.