The Peace of the Heart

Susie is a person with a low boiling point to some extent. Some difficulties in making a decision always bind the anxiety to her. Then she feels angry at herself because of the phobia in choice. But the outside world knows the way to comfort her as if by magic.

When she was a little girl, she preferred to go outside than just staying in the house and doing nothing. Everyday, she looked out of the window , a falling leaf, a mewing cat, a barking dog, the bounding walls…a flying bird and a dead body of a bird.

Most of the time, she is a quiet and beautiful woman, like a vase. But now, she is on the verge of panic. She hears a sound of a step of someone walking towards her. She is so anxious, but she has no heart beat. He is coming! Then Susie asks herself, why is “he”? After a while, she cannot think of it anymore, because she felt she is tucked into a cabinet leaning against the wall of the loft. She cannot control the body of her own. She screams, cries, and begs for mercy, as usual. But there’s no sound. She then finds that she cannot talk anymore. But later, she finds that she can still see the things outside through a window opposite her. There are beautiful trees, a rippling river, a happy family and a number of flying birds. She is soon at ease.

But still, water runs out of her eyes.

“Mom always told me to choose the one I like. But she didn’t tell me the charming one may also be the most dangerous one. ”

“I made a wrong decision which ruined my life. But the candy he gave me at that time, was the sweetest one I’ve eaten in my whole life.”

“I want to be a bird, buried under the outside ground.”

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