2016/6/17

There's a long time since the last time i wrote a diary.Because i want my life to have some good changes therefore i strat keepping diaries again.

I'm lazy,but i have keeping asking myself questions about future,what is really i want,how can i be a good person,and so on since i had my own thinkings.

My vocabulary is limited,my grammar and oral English is poor.But i will be better.Because i love English.Chinese is good.I appreaciate that I'm an Chinese.Because of that,I can read so many Chinese books in native way.

Everyone loves beautiful things.I just wanna enjoy my life in easier ways."The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button"said,"We're meant to lose the people we love. How else would we know how important they are to us?"I knew this and tried to avoid this since I'm young.

Tomorrow of last year is the day i asked Y to be my boyfriend.I used a whole year to spent time with him,hoping to have a long-term relationship.I had my heart-broken and trying to let go.Now i do not care about him as much as I used to be.I feel easier and have to admit that he is just not that into me.

一年前，我以为自己有能力经营一份感情，能将心比心，善解人意，有问题主动沟通。当时的我并不认同女生不能主动表白的观点--男生主动追到你才有成就感。现在我却动摇了。

我知道，如果他因为我的主动而轻视我，我就应该离开。

我知道你是没有信心给我未来。

虽然我们都珍惜当下，但我还是感觉无力。

今天毛概老师的最后一堂课，我们是最后走的。原来老师早就看出来我们是情侣。告诉她我们都在深圳长大，老师说：“那很好啊！CZC又漂亮又温柔，你要好好对她呀！”我害羞地跑出教室：“啊恩恩老师再见！！！”他不在意地说：“我好饿啊吃什么？”。

对于二十出头的男生来说，谈恋爱只是生活的一部分。女人的美貌是不可缺少的。

我值得更好的。多么希望你会变得更好。我知道我太贪心了。但我贪得不过分。

I wanna love the one I love,I wanna live the life I want,I wanna enjoy all of this beautiful world.

After watching "The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button",I think love is not about if we spent our whole life with ture lovers.

I know how it feel when people fall in love.You wanna give everythings to him,you wanna be with him all the time,you wanna know all about him.

I'm crying again.

This summer,I wanna reading,learning English and Japanese,losing weight.

妈妈第六次化疗。开始掉头发。等我赚钱了，给妈妈买漂亮衣服鞋子护肤品=-=。

后天是父亲节。等我赚钱了给爸爸买皮带西装钱包鞋子=-=。

给妈妈送饭回来的时候，想起来小时候每次爸爸开长途载外公外婆妈妈姨妈表哥表姐回妈妈娘家的时候，我都在心里紧张地想：“小心开车呀！一家人平平安安到达！”今天也在心里默念：“小心开车”了。

材料力学要加油复习了呢~

明天去跟豆芽健拍毕业照~感谢豆芽对我的栽培和付出！