Focus and Lost

Right Now I am alone sitting beside the table, watching a boring movie.Thinking Nothing but a littleupset, obviously I know Reading books and studying will help a lot. but I Just Don't want to do that.

Just at the beginning of this week, I made a plan for myself. Such as when to get up, when to read...  After writing this, I feel like I can accomplish all of these. Absolutely I will be the top person who I wanted tobe. Eventually I failed.

I started to complain about the short of time, and I am exhausted after arriving home. I know it's not true. Maybe that means I didn't Find something what I love. Do I like the work what I am doing Now? Why do I want to read books?

It is not what I really like. How pathetic! I lost myself. It seems I have lived a Happy life and get well-paid. But at this moment I can't help feeling helpless for myself.

The education we have got tells us to study for the marks. What is next? No hobbies. No interests. No personality. That is not what I am chasing for. Even if I am 30 right Now, I Still want to change. Be thoughtful.Be thankful. Make a little step everyday.

Finishing about onebook per week. Write  down my own thoughts.Do some Easy exercises eachday. Tell myself I can do it!