124 how does it feel of being ugly

I thought I were quite handsome at a young age. I thought I were tall, handsome, smart and popular among all my schoolmates. I didn't realize that I was wrong till high school, where I got rejected by a girl after I confess my love to her. Then I start to rethink: maybe, I am not what I think I am.

And now, I admit that I am not so handsome. To be a bit mean, I can even say that I am ugly. How does it feel of being ugly? 

1 I can't use my apperance to attract people. For people who is handsome, it's enough for him to attract girls by merely a sweet smile. But for me, when I smile, girls just pull their attention away. 

2 I know that I need to work hard. I know that in the conpetetion of life, my arm will be my ability and professionism. So I work hard to improve myself.

3 I treat wisdom much more important than appearance. I know that I can only accept the things I can't change. I can't change my face, so I grow wiser instead.