My kindness is not your sword stabbing into my heart

Today,my tear was out of control when my good friends ridiculed me.The rationality prevented me from burst while the sensibility fueled my grievance.On the balance of these two emotion,I teared silently and then wiped secretly.

你给的嬉笑那么盛，没人在乎你的认真

Why my kindness and gentleness will be taken for granted?Why my optimism and forgive make me invincible seemingly?

To be honest,it's my fault.I am hungry to ingratiate myself with everyone and be favored by them,thus resulting in my endurance and accepting any request without priciple.It is myself that srcrifice my own joy to amuse others just like a clown.

Fortunately,I had a sincere and profound conversation with the friend to discuss the phenomenon.I gave the pardon and he gave the apologize and advice.

From now on,I would urge myslef to get rid of the habit of torelance and disguise,to courage my brave to speak my reluctance and disfavor,to reveal my base line of intercommunication.Though it is certain to offend someone,my resolve to change the way of gaining others' respect and support can't be destroyed.

You can't fawn on everyone but you can please yourself.What is more significant is that there are massive true friends deserving cherish around me who regard my compromise and kindness as treasure.

forever four