March 23,2017

Time flies,I am getting 20 soon.Recently,I just do not know who I really am,what I really want,I always ask myself,who am I,what do I want actually.If you ask me who do you hate most,I must say,it is myself.I am a fool,I have been learning English for many years,maybe,but I did not spend a lot of time in it,just like Vicky said,it was a fake phenomenon,you just think you have already spent numerous time in it,as a matter of fact,you did not pay much attention in it,so that is why your English is extremely bad!Back to my love life,I just had once,he is 2 younger than me,sometimes I thought he was so childish,he was stupid,until now,I figure that it is according to our childish,he did know me at all and so did I,and sometimes when I was asking him what was his thought,he did not tell me sometime,I think I am so childish,after this relationship I know that I do not know him at all and he did so,I do not know how to love,how to love a person,I just a destroyer,may be I am so childish,but i always believe in Vicky,she said that true love is hard to find,yes ,i admit it,find a person who loves you,respects you,knows you deeply is really hard,but i stiil believe,a successful relationship is rely on each others' persistence,love,understanding,love a person is the.most difficult thing to do,so true love is hard to find.I am not hate you,Hu Jun,I just hate myself,there are so many regrets of our relationship,a word can comfort me,"what done is done"At the beginning,I thought we can be.a company for each other forever,but it is not.You are falling in love with someone,I am not in your heart any more,may I should say.I deserve it,I moved on now,I just want to appreciate with you,HuJun,you are the only person who makes me feel love,I am not hate you.Recently,I thought I had moved on you,but thank you,you let me know the feeling of.love,thank you.I added you because I did not want you disappear in my life,because I loved you,maybe you can not see this,I just want to thank you,Hu Jun.The road to my future is risky,may it fulls of joy,sad or.something else,I know the road to death is so long,it fulls of feelings,ups and.downs,but I am looking forward to it.

To my future,find yourself,taste the feeling of living.