Priviously being with my junior school gal

2016.10.22

Me I'm in bus on the way back to school. Chen siran just said goodbye at the train station.  We stayed together for 3days. We used to be so close that can talk about everything. We shared jokes, opinions even deepest secret of our hearts. But we did not do much this time. She could not get my joke. She told me things I found no interesting. We kind of like losing translations there. The night before she came I was so excited and prepared topics we could enjoy together. But as hours passed I just lost my passion and interest. We are separate now physically and mentally.

The bus I am in is at traffic jam. I'm depressed and exhausted. I feel I lost her. The first time I feel I cannot make our friendship the most important.

I've been missing Peter since yesterday I left that taxi. I was looking at his photos today. He dominated my mind, my opinions of definition of guys. I missed him. But I can't talk to him.