Living in Pakistan - 1

The 1st time I came to Pakistan was Nov 1 of 2016. 

Under the call of Mr.Xi's "One Road One Belt", my cousin was attracted and now is even addicted to the Pakistani market, which is a common situation for lots of Chinese entrepreneurs and most of them are facing environmental valuation obstacles in China. I refused to take part in his Pakistani project at the first place; he tried methods and finally he let me come to Pakistan to feel by myself. I agreed. And then I came to Pakistan the first time, stayed 5 days.

The 2nd time I came to Pakistan was Feb 28 of 2017. 

This time I came for work, in Islamabad, the capital of Pakistan. Together with me were my cousin who is the boss also, a vice manager and a fresh graduate. 

I didn't expect this would be a start of my directionless relationship and now even my belief starts to swing. I still have no religion now, but I do believe now there's something miracle or divine outside. Both of them are killing me; I can't sleep well; I dream everyday; I have no clue where they are heading to; sometimes I even want to quit everything and go back to China. 

And I have no one to tell, so I come here writing all my feelings.