《1984》读书笔记

《1984》这本书其实很薄，但是刚开始读起来还是比较吃力。不仅是因为生词比较多，也因为内容比较枯燥。基本每天就是晚上睡觉之前读几页，然后困得不行就睡了。直到看见下面这句话：

I love you.

这句话在全书中只出现一次。从这句话开始，我读书的进度加快了好多，每天晚上能读好多页，生词依然比较多，只不过内容有意思，很想之后后面发生的事情，就不停读下去了。

读到很多地方都会很感动：

当Julia因为一些原因不能和Winston约会的时候：

She gave the tips of his fingers a quick squeeze that seemed to invite not desire but affection. It stuck him that when one lived with a woman this particular disappointment must be a normal, recurring event; and a deep tenderness, such as he had not felt for her before, suddenly took hold of him. He wished that they were a married couple of ten years' standing.

在那样一个黑暗的时候，想要光明正大的见面聊天成了一种奢望。读到这里的时候，为他们感到难过。但即便这样，那段时间依然是他们度过的最幸福的一段时光。这次之后，他们租到了一个公寓，然后可以比较固定地在那里见面。当他们来到这个公寓，就不用像在外面那样提心吊胆，担心“老大哥”的监视，可以拜托那个世界里面反人类的规矩。可以像正常人一样聊天，分享食物，读书……不过在书中无数次暗示过，两个人也心知肚明，这样的时光很快会结束。“警察”很快会逮捕他们。这样的结果在一个普通的早上很突然地来了，然后他们就被抓了进去。

对Winston的审讯是一个非常虐心的过程，只要看下面一段描述就可以直到大概，这是审讯的人对Winston说的：

What happens here is forever. Understand that in advance. We shall crush you down to the point from which there is no coming back. Things will happen to you from which you could not recover, if you lived a thousand years. Never again you will be capable of ordinary human feeling. Everything will be dead inside you. Never again will you be capable of love, or friendship, or joy of living, or laughter, or curiosity, or courage, or integrity. You will be hollow. We shall squeeze you empty, and then we shall fill you with ourselves.

也确实如此，经过一系列的身心摧残，曾今的那个Winston已经完全死掉了。活着的只是一个躯壳，里面装着“老大哥”定义的世界。在那样的审讯下，没有人可以熬得过去的，我确信，没有任何人可以熬得过去。会说出所有的秘密，会背叛所有的人。虽然这样的结果，还是特别让人难受。

文中没有写Julia所经受的审讯，只写了他们再次相遇。

It was that her waist had grown thicker and, in a surprising wan, had stiffened. He remembered how once, he had helped to drag a corpse out of some ruins, and had been astonished not only by the incredible weight of the thing, but by its rigidity and awkwardness to handle, which made it seem more like stone than flesh. Her body felt like that. It occurred to him that the texture of her skin would be quite different from what it had once been.

虽然很短的一段描述，足以说明Julia的心已经死了，只是一具行走的尸体，正如此时的Winston.

这是一个悲伤的故事。读完之后，我很感激我们依然保有很多的自由，做自己想去做的事，去想去的地方，和爱的人在一起。也要努力保护好这份自由，如果有“老大哥”想要剥夺这份自由，从一开始就不能让他得逞。