Back to myself

One year ago, I started to read the sections on Get it, f.ex., Li Xiaolai, Liu Run, Wang Yuquan. I have to admit that these sections are great, and the authors are the elites of this age. I have learned a lot from it and made my life some changes as well. But now, one year later, I found myself in depression very often. I see that the other readers trying to apply what they have learned in their own lives; I see that they make progress every day; I see that they study hard and enjoy it, while I feel I am kind of frustrated.

Now, I want to slow down on the way of self-improving. I want to do the things in my life carefully and seriously.

Of course, I need goals. I need to step forward. But I don’t like the feeling of panic, the panic of lacking knowledge. I would also live at this moment, not in the future. I will believe that present is the best gift we have. Future is too far from me. I can’t see it; I can’t reach it; I can’t feel it. So, I come back to this moment, to now. I am trying to focus on the things that I am doing, f.ex, tasting the tea, listening to the kids, enjoying the fresh air in the forest. Then, I begin to feel my cells in my body. They are cheering for me.

Yes, I am a part of nature. I enjoy to be with nature, and to communicate with nature. I keep my pace, walk on my way to my future.