To Devin/To myself

Dear Devin

Actually when I know you have girlfriend that night.i feel lose, i feel complex .i don't want say bless you.i stand on the road waiting a motor bike send me home my tears down ……i recalled many times i sit on your motor you drive me to climbing、hiking 、go home ……i recalled so many things about you and me……

you are such a good guy:

your  reliable

your gentle

Your apologize

Your peaceful

Your steady and sure

Your earnest

Your optimistic

Your humor

Your accept

your kindhearted

your frank and honest

You like clean and tidy

You cook very well

You like climbing and mountain

You like music and play gita

Your beautiful voice

Your beautiful draws

……

I remember the first time you invite me to dinner at restaurant

I remember that time you cooked dish ,you wish i can try，i can feel your heart

……

All these good and beautiful things of you I didn't appreciate yet ，i didn't cherish yet,i let you go what a stupid woman like me

I realize why I didn't appreciate,i require too much from you.a person should not require our    Close friend too much.the close friend or family member are that one give us most,They are the ones we most need to be thankful for

I also recalled many things i didn't apologize yet

My self-right

My impolite

I disturb you

I made ur throat not feel better but worse

……

what suprised me?

1.i surprised The lose is a good lesson make me learn how to cherish

2.i surprised until now i know i should face my true self,then i can let go，and make myself comfortable

3.i surprised when I write this to you i cried a lot.tears like raining

many times  i imagine if I still can by your side  i ll be different but ……i really want to say i wish  the lucky girl is me who can be your girlfriend

to devin