You were both lucky to have found each other.

When you least expect it, nature has cunning ways of finding our weakest spot. Just remember, I’m here.

But now, you may not want to feel anything. Maybe you never wanted to feel anything. But feel something you obviously did.

You had a beautiful friendship, maybe more than a friendship. And I envy you.

In my place, most parents would hope the whole thing goes away. And pray their sons land on their feet. But I am not such a parent.

We rip out so much of ourselves to be cured of things faster that we go bankrupt by the age of thirty. And less to offer each time we start with someone new. But to make yourself feel nothing so as not to feel anything, what a waste!

I may have come close, but I never had what you two have. Something always held me back or stood in the way.

How you live your life is your business. Just remember: our hearts and our bodies are given to us only ones. Before you know it, your heart’s worn out; as your body there comes a point when no one looks at it, much less wants to come near it.

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F：你太聪明，不可能不知道你们的友谊，是多么珍贵多么特别。

E：奥利弗是奥利弗。

F：你们之间和聪明毫无关系。他很善良，你们能遇见彼此是多么幸运，因为你也很善良。

E：我觉得他，他比我善良。

F：我相信他也会这么说你。对，说同样的话。

    你们俩相得益彰，在你最猝不及防之时，上帝就狡诈地找到了我们最脆弱的地方。你只要记住，我在这里。现在你可能不去想感受什么，或许你从来不希望感受什么。或许你不愿意向我倾吐这些事情，但是，请你感受你所感受的。

      你有一段很美好的友谊，也许超过了友谊。我羡慕你。在我看来，多数父母会希望这一切烟消云散。祈祷他们的孩子就此放手。但是，我不是这样的父母。

为了快速愈合，我们从自己身上剥夺了太多的东西，以致在三十岁时，自己的感情就已破产。每开始一段新的感情，我们能给予的便越少。但是为了让自己不要有感觉而不去感受，是多么的浪费。

      我说多错话了吗？——那我再说一件事情。让我们开诚布公，我也许曾经接近，但我从来没拥有过你们拥有的。总有些什么在阻挠我，或是挡在我面前。

      如何过一生是你自己的事情，你只要记住。上天赐予我们的身体和心灵只有一次，而在你领悟之前，你的心已经疲惫不堪了。至于你的身体，总有一天，没有人愿意再看他一眼，更没有人愿意接近。现在，你充满了悲伤，痛苦，现在，别让这些悲伤痛苦消失。

也别丧失你感受到的快乐。

                  ——《请以你的名字呼唤我》

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