2020-10-10-a blue day

Oh, the keyboard still has some problems, it can easily get sticky! I used it yesterday and everything was fine, I guess once I stop using it, the keyboard will return to be sticky, and if I don't  use it for a couple o f days, there is a high chance that i can never use it, cause it becomes totally sticky! the power of time! you see it ? 

I'm not sure what day it is when I will hang out a whole day leaving my laptop lonely in the apartment without being used, but I know that day will be coming. That's the time when my laptop has to face its' first challenge. I hope it good luck and can go through it successfully.

TODAY, it's a bad day. I couldn't fall asleep last night till early morning, I didn't wake up till 10 am. it sucks, I lost my beautiful morning, it always makes me feel sad.

The first thing I did was not getting dressed, but airing the sheets - I did the laundry before I went to bed. You know, airing sheets is always not easy, first I climbed over the window and jumped out of the balcony, then I rubbed the hanger--which has a lot of dust on it, after that I can hang my sheets on it. It might sound ridiculous but it did cost me half an hour to do so.

THEN, I get myself dressed, make the bed and do some washing. My scalp was extremely itchy and was full of dandruff, I couldn't help scratching it, it nearly drives me CRAZY!!!

BUT that's not I gonna to say, I want to complain how terrible the current time is! Every single one wastes such a huge amount of energy on things totally meaningless. I want to buy a bottle of shampoo, the manufacturer has made thousand kinds of different shampoo, which is just shampoo, a kind of cleaner to help wash hair and get hair clean. I wonder how they can think of different functions like ...&..., and customers are willing to accept those made up concepts and happy to pick up the right one for themselves, what funny is that they can even get a strong sense of satisfaction in the process of deciding which product to buy! Poor human! Their precious energy and spirit are gradually ruined by the tricks of merchants!

I can sometimes step into such kind of traps as well, that's why I am writing these words down. Poor Zoe, I understand that you know a lot of truth and the way to success, but you never do it, I can feel your misery, helplessness and timidity. BUT life is cruel, if you never have the courage to face your inner fear, you will never be the man you want to be.

I want you to accept yourself, don't be panic, fake it until you make it.