这是第一个被fail的演讲，之后因为要复习备考，所以暂停一段时间投入到头马。但是因为这一次fail，痛下决心好好努力，一定要成为一个好的演讲者，好的IE，所有的角色都应该做到最好。所以，每次演讲都要以拿到最佳的speaker为目标去努力。
In 2015, It was the first time I joined Toastmaster. Three years later, it was the second time I joined Toastmaster. I have met three mentors, so I have some stories to share with you. Teachers, leaders and colleagues can be our mentors. But what makes mentors of toastmaster so different is that they are really a big fan of encouragement. Thanks to that, I am already on my way to a better me.
(legs trembling, face turning red, look around and look back)
Can you hear my voice? I am very shy and nervous. My name is is is ……. This is me stand in front of 30 person in the first year of college. I can’t even say my name out loud and almost burst into crying. But now, I have always receive compliment of my confidence on the stage from my evaluators in my previous speeches. All these thanks to my mentor——Bonnie’ s great encouragement. “You can do it! You are an elegant and beautiful girl. Just be the way you are. I trust in you.” No one has ever encourage me as Bonnie do. She also told me that when I am nervous, just ignore the audience and look into the distance. With Bonnie’s word and encouragement, I suddenly have the courage and determination to overcome my fear of standing on the stage. The first speech, the second speech, the third speech……I finally conquer my fear.
Bonnie’s encouragement not only gave me the courage to come to the stage, but also grow confidence in my mind. Table topic speech is what I am most afraid of. Whenever I get a topic, my head will be blank. I told Bonnie my distress, and she said, If you are afraid of table topic speech, why don’t you try rainbow table topic. You would feel not so nervous when you do it online. Don’t to be strict on yourself. You are already doing good. So I sign up for every rainbow table topic session. It was Bonnie who evaluated my first speech. She also give me a lot of encouragement. Your voice are so melody. I love your speech especially the ending. The sentence you used is really amazing. That was the first time I trust in myself that I can do table topic speech. From then on, I even got the best speaker twice.
In SYSU MED, I have two mentors——Bonnie and Sissy. They are both good at English. I am also very upset about my pronunciation and the lack of vocabulary. Bonnie ,who always love to encourage me, start to encourage me again. Don’t be afraid. The reason why we join toastmaster is that we are not the perfect one we want us to be. We can always have chance to learn from others. Here are some videos about brilliant speeches. We can learn together. She help me to analyze every sentence they say in their speech and share lots of knowledge with me. But she also told me that active learning is the most important. So no matter how old I am, I will never stop learning.
In toastmaster, my mentor is not the only one person who are in fond of encouragement. Our evaluators are very good at discovering shinning points on us, constantly encouraging us and giving us opportunity to grow. They also provide useful feedback. This is a place where I find previous sincerity among peoples and where I explore a better me. Glory to encouragement.
2015年，我第一次加入头马。2018年，是我第二次加入头马。曾经有过3个导师，我还是有些故事想告诉大家。老师、上级、同事都曾作为我的导师。但头马的导师与众不同的点是一个激情四射的鼓励师。正是来自导师的鼓励让我发现了更美好的自己。
鼓励让我拥有了勇气
（场景演示：脚发抖、脸很红，一直在扇手，左右环顾，背对观众）你们能听到我的声音？em，我叫陈燕。我很紧张。（站到右边）这就是我，在大学新生介绍会上，我一句话都说不出来，甚至要哭了。而现在的我，在以前做过的演讲中，总是被夸站在头上很自信、台风很好。那都是因为我的导师Bonnie的鼓励给了我勇气。“You can do it！ You are elegant and beautiful. Just be the way you are. I trust in you. ”她也告诉我，当我紧张的时候，就不要看观众，看向远方。从来没有人不停地给我鼓励，正是因为这些鼓励，我突然有了勇气，知道自己必须要克服站在台上的恐惧。第一次、第二次、第三次……我终于不再害怕舞台。
鼓励让我拥有了自信
Bonnie的鼓励不仅给了我上台的勇气，也给了我自信。即兴演讲是我最害怕的。因为每当拿到一个题目的时候，我的脑袋就会一片空白。我告诉了Bonnie我的苦恼。她说：你可以尝试一下rainbow table topic，先做线上的，再做线下的。不用太着急，不用对自己太严格。第一次做rainbow table topic的时候，正好是bonnie做我的evaluator，她很真诚地夸我：你的声音很动听。讲的内容特别地有逻辑。特别是最后一句话“that’s why human being being human ’说得非常好。”哇，原来我也可以做table topic的。于是，我每次都积极参加rainbow table topic，拿了2次最佳best speaker。
鼓励让我不怕失败，主动学习
我在头马的两位导师，英文水平都比我厉害很多。我也很为自己的英语发音、英语词汇的匮乏感到很苦恼。这时候，很爱鼓励的Bonnie又开始鼓励了。“别害怕，参加头马就是有机会让每个人不断进步。不要怕现在自己还不够好。我们一起学习，提高自己。”接着，她会时不时地分享一些资深头马演讲人的视频给我，陪我一起看，一句一句地去分析他们讲得好的优点是什么。师傅引进门，修行在个人。主动学习才能获得更大的进步。
在头马，不仅导师是爱鼓励的，我们的evaluators都很擅长发现我们身上的闪光点，不断地鼓励我们，给我们机会去成长。也会提供一些有用的反馈。我在头马，看到了很宝贵的真诚。并不断探索更好的自己。