有的时候身处各种夹缝中,感觉还挺好,就在于不认为这是最低点,也许还会更糟糕,但主要的是不受外界负面信息干扰,一切都会过去,即使狂躁的,炙热的,心神不定的,无法平静的一股脑袭来,坚持让头脑安静下来,呼吸,关注呼吸的节奏,就会慢慢静下来,知道一切都是浪涛汹涌的细沙,都会流逝和飘过,一切都没有那么重要,一切都可以接受。
这就是昨天看完“玫瑰人生”的灼烧感,第一次感受到夏季的热和热瑜伽室的热,曾经一度要放弃瑜伽到一个凉爽的地方,就那样自我放任的透透气和看一些无关的电影或小说,吃着冰淇凌,放任自流.............Piaf的电影和歌曲体验过很多遍,她的一生注定带来很多惊奇和不幸,犹如中国传统的黑寡妇,和她交往的无数情人都或多或少出过车祸,过早离开人世或者某种不幸,她自己也是酗酒和吸毒结束年轻的天才一生,而一切早已从她的童年注定,悲剧的成长过程和天赋的父母基因即使没有那么强烈但无疑遗传到她的表演能力和歌唱的透彻心扉,一切放弃的颓废奠定了她的无礼,放纵和狂乱的随性,吸引力无穷在于此。法国的表演团是一个身材保持很好的年纪比较大的艺术家Nathalie Lermitte和四个身材气质都保持很好的中年法国男子组成,2个小时表演都是N在极尽声情并茂表演和歌唱,同时体力和感情剧烈消耗,她说“只有一个Piaf”,法兰西的骄傲,但只有一个Nathalie,她的表演包含激情和调动全身细胞能量,如果不是一个巨大的美琪大剧院和周末下午不够满的群众,可以想象是一个Montmartre一个剧场狭小幽暗红色丝绒镶嵌的雾蒙蒙或者纽约off broadway的中型剧场,一切就会呈现一个感动自己的幸运感和分享的喜悦,而不是一个狂乱的炙热,需要两个北海道抹茶冰淇凌安慰的心灵和不可压制的高温带来身体各个部位的sensation,从而削弱自己的意志,出现妥协的念头,但没有被纵容,感谢瑜伽和冥想的定力!
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一夜未睡应该晚上jeglag,但很兴奋的体验酒店里的高科技boom音响,估计是EPFL的创新项目,他们超级擅长科技创新,看了一会法语电视,基本忘得差不多了,不过知道自己如果在法语区生活会很快恢复!Last night supposed to be jet lag,I was trying the boom system in hotel,then watching French TV and thinking my French will be so improved if I am living here.
躺在床上可以感受到身体各个部位的sensation,起来冥想之后睡得很快很好。Then laying on bed to feel the sensation,can not sleep then standing up meditate for a while then falling sleep nicely.
第二天4点起来去湖边跑步,需要穿越一个bush才可以到湖边,决定跑到洛桑,估计来回10几公里,阳光已经高起,湖面平静的倒映雪山和天鹅在悠闲地浮水,一切没有变化和正常的美,我跑到pier可以看到movenpick hotel开始stretch,没有兴趣去马上下个星期就要去的ouchy,回头跑回去找到之前两边跑需要到达的黄色阁楼的餐厅,如所料就在我们酒店所在的村子里,我从而了解到EPFL正确的脑海中地图的定位,否则一直不心安。我现在跑步都不是很自信源于之前一次中央公园倒时差跑步的气喘吁吁,感觉跑步的能力在下降,同时我告诫自己:你是个马拉松跑者,3个半小时!不要放弃!Even woke up this morning at 4am fully charged for meditation and rush out for run under the sun and amazing path to Lausanne,was a bit concerned as have not got good feeling with run in central park mentally issue thinking of run as challenging. For GOD sake I am marathon runner.
It was exactly the slight further than my previous run end,yellow mansion and also restaurant,I am so happy I found my location,that is my thing,like my father.
沿着平静的湖泊和雪山,天鹅美景跑步,心理告诫自己珍惜此时此刻的美景时光,降低大脑想的事情,但不要强制压制,而是跟随她的flow;喜欢虽然是多年没次回来都跑的路线,但朝向和起点都不一样,很有意思!Run along the very clear lake,looking at snow mountains in front of sun,what u want in life,just enjoy the moment,reduce mind activity to least,not with enforcement but let it flow. Same route but different routine,kind of fun.
跑了一个小时15分钟,7.45回到酒店室外的terrace,我开始做ashtanga,干净清爽的空气凉的很舒服,虽然陆续一些人出来在餐厅那里吃早餐,我的瑜伽不受干扰,而且身体打开的舒服!6.30am,up to 7am already seeing Lausanne from view point,back to hotel at 7.45am and take mate to the terrace for yoga,which is a nicer floor to practice,with people coming for breakfast but I am doing good.
早餐吃得就是一个queen,我最爱的世界范围内优质muesli,两碗,当地品牌酸奶milco,有可能是我之前试图卖过的公司,四个小巧美丽的bakery瑞士bakery质量绝对全球最好,小巧而且味道精致,一点鸡蛋和两杯可以用豆奶做的latte machiatto这个目前只有sterling酒店可以做到,其他再好的酒店都是固定的milk!我细细品尝,看着尽在咫尺但遥远的雪山,感觉回到了我最好的一起西西里岛看着4千年古址顶层terrace吃着酸奶的早餐时刻,可以媲美!A feast of breakfast;two bowls of muesli,one milco yoghurt,might be the company for sale;4 Swiss bakeries they really making great stuff,a bit eggs,two latte machiato with soya,love it. View of snow mountain,can compare with Sicilian morning yoghurt looking at thousands of years old history ruins.
早餐后还有两个小时我的朋友才会来接我,我继续酒店里工作,喝着我的double espresso,享受!Less than 2 hours before D coming so I just work and read in hotel. Double espresso.
朋友D开着他的fancy法拉利跑车,我当然喜欢一切经验,不会因为法拉利就多一些殷切或者骑着自行车纵横各个美景的酒庄就不一样,我很擅长各种得体的话题,不投其所好但绝不无聊;D提到他之前买过两次法拉利的经验瑞士豪车都不是很贵,我们去了酒庄古老的村庄发现餐厅都是满的,很多车停在各处,不是我经常体验的无人的瑞士城市,我们在de la post吃了午餐,开心D因为开车也不喝酒,我纠结过如果被劝喝酒在如此美景下,是否会动摇,没机会坚决say no:我们都不喝酒!瑞士素食选择已经进步到我无需只吃每个餐厅都提供的一样的无味的色拉,现在可以有cheese搭配的各种dish很美味;我们在一起是典型的一个年纪大的男人带着年轻的亚洲女性,即使自己不是20出头的年轻轻浮着装亚洲女子,我也明显的比D年轻很多,我对瑞士人礼貌的恍惚一瞥无所谓,也没在意D是否介意,也许很多人认识他。
D came with his farari which is kind of cool experience,of course I am trying to position myself properly,not too catering not too boring,love the experience with speedy car in vineyard drive and D said about his experience with buying two in the past,and we had nice lunch in the restaurant of de la post,we typically look like an old man with a younger Asian woman,even I am not a chick of 20 something but u know how it looks like.
虽然我的法语可以manage理解菜单,但D超级耐心的解释菜单帮我点单,之后我们试图去一个中国人买下的很受欢迎餐厅喝咖啡,竟然几次来回都找不到停车位,D来回几次经过找车位的耐心不急躁透露着欧洲绅士的优秀品格!之后去了一个UNICEF保护古老村庄一个狭长的间隙空间外面的椅子上喝咖啡,其实D是不喝的,我和他谈到如何冥想,针对他的身体问题如何提升wellbeing,他很有兴趣的迎合我,一个愉快的时光。Good vegetarian cheese lunch and D is patient to explain the menu and he is 62 years old. We tried to go to a nice cafe and hotel terrace view but no parking and ended up a small cafe by the steep stairs of small village,quite nice. I try to share more things about wellbeing and meditation to D for his health,he is doing all the efforts to cater.
D有很多世界各国旅行和了解很多大企业CEO家族企业继承人的很不为常人所知的故事,都很有意思,我愿意听他愿意讲,我经常问到别人下一步要做什么,对呀也一样:D对于几年后的退休很接受的样子,问到我啥时退休,我难以想象自己可以退休但说向往自由,可以规划自己哪里呆多长时间;D说我可以1/4在纽约,1/4在瑞士,1/4在上海,1/4世界旅行,听起来很合适!It is not without efforts to come out good conversation with D,but I managed to make it interesting and he has good story to share on his trip,still unhappy with somebody,but he is not going to do anything aggressive. 2.5 years he is retired.
喜欢如此不同的体验,虚荣心得到满足远不如好奇心获得知识更有意思,我们回到酒店,我马上去EPFL学习,迎接我的DBA week!Quite an interesting experience,that is what I like. Now back to EPFL for studying,kind of. Ready for the coming week.
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