Day17

"Ah, man, Dean, I'm sorry, I never acted this way before with you. Well, now you know me. You know I don't have close relationships with anybody any more-I don't know what to do with these things. I hold things in my hand like pieces of crap and don't know where to put it down. Let's forget it." The holy con-man began to eat. "It's not my fault! it's not my fault!" I told him. "Nothing in this lousy world is my fault, don't you see that? I don't want it to be and it can't be and it won't be.

这是Sal和迪安吵架后，Sal道歉的一段话，Sal从来都是理解迪安的，尽管迪安在别人眼中是多么的疯狂，放荡不羁，毫无责任心，行事乖张，当Sal第一次冲迪安发火时，迪安居然哭了，虽然Sal并不认为没心没肺的迪安会哭，这也是迪安难过的地方吧，在这个被他们讨厌的世界上，他们也无可奈何，只能在疯狂的麻醉中寻找灵感快乐，其实他们是有一颗天真善良的心，一如迪安从未放弃过寻找那个不靠谱糟糕的父亲，因为那是他唯一的亲人，哪怕从亲戚那里打听他小时候与父亲有关的事情，迪安也是渴望被温暖与爱的吧！