Stroll in Anxiety

'Anything that can go wrong will go wrong'  —— Murphy's Law 

If anything i find myself learned from the experience of left 2017 , that is nothing.  

When look back, there are indeed things I could do well yet i am not trying. It seems to me a certain ceremony is needed to start doing something. Absent of that , I just feel I am not prepared well or that i am not ready.

I know myself well that things i could do. I might not so good by now and by the very beginning, for being a type of slow-to-warm-up personality.  Most of time, i'll be doing just fine and yet not perfect. That is what my memory told me, although nowadays i should start to doubt my own memories. 

I should confess, at least to myself, that i am not try my best, not even modest.  I am waiting for other people to make mistakes, and blame them then. The project do present a different fate if I could be more responsible and motivated. I hate to say, I am wasting my time for doing nothing. this ain't do me any good. 

Fine, what has passed is past. People like me who never really being physiologically independent should serious examine our own mind. what do we want, how could we become really isolated us from the idea of take advantages of our 'middle-class' family. Let make good use of the 'free yet costly' days. 

This should consider as my ceremony, which i would start to make up my mind and conducting a career change.  There really isn't too much time for us to 'imagining' future.   

Plans 

6:00  Get up

6:20-7:15 news reciting

7:15-7:45 breakfast

8:30-11:30 Udacity Learning 

12:30-13:30 Bloging

13:45-18:00 Udacity Learning

18:45-19:45 Running and Excising 

20:00-20:45 TalkShow Watching

21:00-23:00 Reading