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2018/12/13 周四 阴天
I am very ashamed, I have not seriously written my words for almost a week, for my previous "escape measures", I am really ashamed, shame unbearable.
Just had talked with the little sister that did not meet before ten minutes "confused idea", talk very happy, the estrangement that does not have a stranger feels at all, it is a kind of "spit it out quickly" however hao yi feels.
Growth of the road, I came all the way, really tired heart, experienced a lot of sad. My original heart has been on this road more and more confused, about to lose the way forward.
A lot of times, "original heart" cannot decide, impetuous the decision that cannot bear to make often is to be able to let oneself "regret at the beginning", be like the year before last the road that abandonds "body takes an examination of", last year abandonds "the road of the college entrance exam", this year, I am thinking all the time again whether need abandonds "from take an examination of undergraduate course" road?
That little sister is right, if the heart is too tired, just stop and have a rest. If you lose your way, let yourself be be quiet.
Today, is those "shopaholic" another shopping carnival day, commonly known as "12-12". For me, it's just another day. But if I have to mark today, I think it will be the first time I've driven four gears above 60 yards back to school.
Many things seem ordinary, but for a specific person, it is very precious, very difficult, very meaningful. Similarly, many things that are grand and meaningful to most people, to some people, are nothing more than ordinary and ordinary.
I cherish every encounter, mutual understanding, the fate of the intersection. I believe that everyone will have their own unique life course, I am eager to grow up, grateful for everything that makes me grow up. Whether it is good or bad, but whatever I have experienced, but whatever can make me grow up, I will cherish their appearance.
People are really amazing, I think the "brain function" is very special. A person lives in this world, the mentality of looking at things is particularly important, the mentality affects cognition, cognition determines a person's world "width" and the perception of life experience.
It's funny. When I studied "ma yuan" before, I thought those philosophers were really "too full to do anything" and studied those useless theories every day. But slowly experience more, and then look back carefully to review the knowledge, but can appreciate some of the true meaning of life.
Since then, I have always felt contradictory. Sometimes I think of it but dare not do it. After doing it, I am afraid to live in fear.
This kind of self, is really too bad, I do not like. I do not want to go down so self-denial, I want to think about it, be quiet, let that impetuous heart calm down.
As my twentieth birthday approaches, I want to say goodbye to my old self. I want to embrace a new "tomorrow". "Tomorrow" of me, no longer timid, no longer escape, no longer fear.
There is no absolutely right choice in life. The judgment of "right" and "wrong" is actually a choice in our heart.
I hope I can stick to my "true heart", I can completely get out of the "shadow" brought by those bad experiences, be a better person, and find the way I want to be.
Every day may be a "miracle" of "tomorrow", tomorrow may be, whether or not, I would like it to be!